There is

There is something beautiful in everything. 

You don't have to see it to know its there. 

And sometimes you may not feel it either. 

But it exists beyond what our senses can comprehend. 

We are in the midst of it all.

A.S.

INFJ

Coming from an INFJ:

The difference between us and them?

They strive and live for themselves.
We strive and live for us all.

In my head

Sometimes the hardest reality for me to come to terms with, is the fact that some of the experiences I crave in life, if I want to experience them, I must seek them out alone.
It's hard to imagine myself finding joy in doing these things in solitude, but waiting for it to come or waiting for another person to crave these with me, will surely be in vain.

I want to explore and experience this world,its surfaces, the nooks and crannies, hidden mom & pop shops, large book stores, cave or cove.. The perfect warm drink elixir  that seems to nourish your imaginative soul.

I want a friend that accepts me for more than what I may provide them in the small space of our homes. I crave that friend that wants to see the world, and we both bear witness to the wonders and pleasures of life lived.

Until then, I live in my head, whereas despite the quiet ache that makes its way to my bones, my mind takes me far, far away where no one truly knows.

A.S.

Motion

They with hearts of stone, keep throwing.
Like water, we keep flowing.
Their rough edges, in time will be no more
You are a drop in the ocean.
But together we are it's motion..


A.S.

Accept yourself

For the most part we subconsciously seek happiness outwardly..through our relationships with other people and things. The real happiness comes from the contentment that can nestle in the deepest part of our soul. Where you can sit with yourself, with your own thoughts,entertain ideas, find solace and Truth.

To accept our true selves and live with integrity.

-A

Be within'

There is soooo.. so much more to your being than what other's may perceive of you. And in the end it doesn't matter except that you see beyond what you view in the mirror. BE within' your heart and soul, and all else of the flesh and worldly matters, melt away..

A.S.

It's one thing to realize that our actions/deeds have their ripple effects around us, but its another story to actually see that ripple take effect. May we always be humble, grateful and a source of light...ameen.

 

-A

Integrity

For the most part, we subconsciously seek happiness outwardly..through our relationships with other people and things. The real happiness comes from the contentment that can nestle in the deepest part of our soul. Where you can sit with yourself, with your own thoughts,entertain ideas, find solace and truth.To accept our true selves and live with integrity.

 

-A

Live it

I want to grow strong together
I want to go for slow walks and breathe in fresh air..
I want to relish the dirt and to wink at the sky..
I want to be in awe of all things nature..
I want to have picnics on a comfy blanket,reading a book, or playing a game
I want to live life beyond these walls.
I want to capture photos of laughter, deep thought and everything close up..
I want memories beyond our cushions and screens.

Life is so much more.
I want to live it, not watch it pass me by.

A.S.

Love letter 2015

It was from the start, I was drawn in by your smile..
You possessed the soft laughing eyes I always longed for.
Your soul made your way into my heart before the conversation ever started.

At that moment I already loved you, whether I knew it or not.
Or better yet..
You entertained my idea of love.
And as time passed, our conversation grew and evolved.
But still, I wanted to love you more.
You filled my brain with hopes and desire.

Fast forward to our lives together.

I had realized what I had always instinctively knew.
That to love someone is in part nature..
And for the most part, a choice.
I choose the love of my life, every single day...
And through every hardship.
I choose love and the lesson.
The days of ease, the fruit of our labour.

This is where I can safely say our work that comes with maintaining a
relationship only gets easier.
Love has many forms, and it indeed continues to grow.
My love for you indeed is stronger than the first hypnotic moment I was in awe of you.
My desire for you is that much more, as there is a bond that is deeper than
the core.

Every single moment transcends me beyond this mortality.
I literally see and feel eternity with you..
For as long as I breathe, and for as long as I came to Be.
This existence is the one to live.
I'm forever grateful to be within' it, with you.

A.S.

I will

 

I will not call people names.

I choose to believe in the beautiful qualities someone must posses

I will not poke fun at someone's moment of weakness.

I have many of my own.

I will never assume I know a person

I'm still learning about myself

I will not let rage get the best of me

I will smile in my heart..stand back from the pack.

We all fall down.

I will forgive people like I wish to be forgiven.

Differences of opinion create different possibilities

Forget the name calling.

Would you want to eat the flesh of your friend?

Oh they're not a friend they may say...

Not if you already decide someone is an enemy.

If you want to see,hear and feel beautiful things..

We ought to choose them.

We embody what we believe in.

Throw the negativity away

Approach everything and everyone with kindness.

 

Be kind to yourself.

 

This isn't a trait of weakness and softness..

It takes the strongest of character and moral to practice pure love...

 

And it takes absolutely nothing to give into the mindless slur of anger.

A.S.

All of me.

It's just one of those days.

You try to drown out the dark thoughts.
You find a melody that stirs that feeling in you.
Thoughts are whirling into a dark shape.
Push comes to shove, you write down your melancholy.
You write to clear it from your mind..
To let the thought exist someplace outside the confines of your body...
You write to decipher the hidden code..
You write to learn the message.

Sometimes there is no lesson..
Sometimes you just need to be heard and most of all, felt..

Acceptance of all of me.


A.S.

I am

This is the moment.

The moment is now.

Simply, I am.

A.S.

Life

Once we realize that our souls live beyond the confines of the body,

This earthly existence,everything you see, hear and feel surpasses space,time and the tangible.

Life is full of experiences,shifting,changing, loops and swirls..

It is of highs and lows linked together and it manifests into never ending ripples.

Words are a beautiful way to enlightenment...

It is not the words we say that is life,

But a beautiful essence of what IS beyond our scale of interpretation.

-A.S.

Through it all

I remember the time.. We stared into each others eyes. Peering into each others souls with a longing that had no measure. Not even an ocean could keep us apart. I love you now as I did then.. But I can wildly say more. My heart longs for you more in this moment with you softly sleeping by my side... And it is within this deep knowledge and experience of loving you.. Through low and high tides.. That I can say my love for you has only grown stronger. My heart will never let you go

A.S.

Crew

The moment you want to take off with your crew, do something outside, explore and get out of the den...

But that crew lives in your head and you end up staying in bed instead.


A.S.

Foresight

Time slips on by..

A  passing moment confirmed a feeling that was had.

All along her instincts were cluing her in,

But it is with the passage of time that the story was told.

She has visions, sometimes  just a feeling..

They teased her, but she always knew.

The secrets she holds, her foresight

A.S.

The differences between us.

The difference between us and them.

We voice from a place of love,reason and integrity.
At the very least these are our intentions.
Its that simple.

They yell to overpower and to feel in control..
Whereas they've actually lost self control, their words coming from a place of anger and defensive defiance.
Their words are hurtful and disrespectful.

The difference between us and them?
We listen with our hearts, and they their ego's.


A.S.

She's a nice girl

She's a nice girl.

On the outside she looks small and serene..

Her eyes are laughing and her smile half concealed.

She's so much more than what she reveals.

Deep down there are scars.

She's battled and she's has her honour.

She's beyond her years in the field of emotion, however socially naive.

She's a girl with a heart as deep as the sea, and a spirit of a wolf.

Looking at her, you wouldn't know the mystery she holds.

She's a nice girl.
Indeed...

A.S.

In the face of evil

I do not fear death.
No one wants to suffer..and this thought of suffering I will not entertain.
Because even if lodged in the face of terror,
In a final moment brought upon me by bloody hands..
I can smile..
Because we have truth and love in our hearts..
This flesh is merely a capsule for our souls..
So, I do not fear meeting my Creator.

A moment of pain in this life, and a never ending spiritual release.
I know what it is to be free.

A.S.

Someone's last hope.

And to think it should be so simple NOT to kill your neighbors simply because someone told you to. They tell you they are monsters and what is theirs is yours. Think for yourselves, and stop ignoring that little feeling telling you the acts you're carrying out with your own hand are wrong.

There's still hope, even if its just before someone's last moment.

Astaghfurallah.
God heal our hearts, ameen.

A.S.

Today

Just as there are things worth dying for, there are plenty of things worth living for.

Don't miss today's chance to be happy. It is a choice.

A.S.

We need...

People want to be acknowledged and accepted in society, within' big and small circles alike. We project ourselves onto others, good and bad... We want our choices & beliefs, big or small to be validated and accepted.

We need to learn to accept ourselves. We need to appreciate and embrace all our differences, not just our similarities. So long as there is respect for life and love.

Its so simple to do, yet so hard for people to learn.

Peace....

A.S.

Aware

Despite what some may speak of..

I'm grateful for this day.

Everything that has led me to this moment..

For all that fills this space and time..

All tangible and emotional feeling..

Being.

Let me die in a state of awareness..

Grateful for this vessel that is this body..

In touch with the spirit within'..

My flesh, my tool..

Mind, body and soul...

Let me die in a sate they are all One.

A.S.

28 layers

There are twenty eight layers of me.

Not a single day would help you see..

Not many have gone beyond three.

Who am I kidding?

Not many see beyond this face.

I am deeper than the darkest blues..

I go higher than what meets the eye..

I am a feeling, a truth.. a message.. a reflection.

A soul dancing in a vessel.

I am decorated by skin and bones.

These hands are merely tools.

They tire and they can break...

But my heart remains.

I live.

Every year I've grown..

I am so much more than you'll ever know.

A.S.

Born Again

Thank you for that moment..

You brought me out of the silly fog.

That moment you lit my heart with starry dust..

Brought a tickle to my tummy…

A laughter I couldn’t hold,

It was with your smile, I was born again.

A.S.

Demons

Their egos are summoned

They tell you what you are..

They have you believing what you're not..

Demons speak.

Without a thought,their whisperings escape many lips

Never let a lie, let you die.

Remember what is inside..

Your soul dances.

Never let the demons cast their shadows..

Smoke and mirrors.

You're still there.

A.R.

Dear people of the world..There is a huge difference in embracing each other's differences versus tolerating them. 

Beyond the confines

Anticipation was flowing through her veins..
Miles away, she felt every moment he was drawing near.
In her mind it was all very well thought out.
Upon arrival she'd rush into his arms, overjoyed..
Every fiber of her being combusting into a tangle of joy and passion.

In actuality, his much awaited presence took over all her preparedness.
The sense of him overwhelming to all her being.
She was rendered still and silent.
Perplexed He was, seeing her in such a state.
Was she not pleased?
Shocked, tired or afraid?..

She waited for this moment, and in years past..
All her life she waited and anticipated him.
His great display of emotion for her, rendered her fixated and still..
Stuck in time, stuck in the moment, she was in awe of him.
His love unquestionable..his emotions raw.

Her heart was soaring..
She was beyond the confines of her flesh.


A.R.

Until...

Until we care for animals, we won't care for humans... Cruelty starts on those the most helpless and our treatment of animals is a reflection of the bigger picture. I am in no way saying that one life has more value over another, be it human or animal. I'm saying that respect, love and compassion can not be confined and conditioned. To try to do so, is ignorant and selfish. 

A.R.

Dust

You say I'm the best..

In my mind I ask myself if you believe it.

Love me when the shade is gone.

Love me when the chains pull tight.

Love me when the I'm down on my knees.

Love me when you bleed.

Then my heart answers ..

Thoughts begin to settle like dust..

And I'm left with the sweet feeling in my soul.

A.R.

Plunge

We have a great power nestled inside.
Its greatly understated..
The ability to choose your thoughts.
Your heart and soul, you are able to fine tune.

That beautiful sound you listen to..
The vision of beauty that moves you..
The stories and inquiries..
Everything we experience regardless of our initial feeling..
All can be an inspiration and a motivation.
The direction these two go is within' your power.

Mind...thought...
Love, happiness, creativity, and reward..
All are within' your grasp..
It all starts inwardly, towards the root of ourselves.

Don't be afraid to plunge deep.
Once you're there, you bring something to the surface
Yourself.

A.R.

They're a team

The moment that they miss their sidekick,
realizing they were a team all along.


A.R.

Soft breeze

Alhamdulilah.. He moves you when you least expect it. Like a soft breeze on your soul. Thoughts in the clouds..feet on the ground and sweet nothings.

Alhamdulilah.

A.R.

Moves you

Alhamdulilah.. He moves you when you least expect it. Like a soft breeze on your soul. Thoughts in the clouds..feet on the ground and sweet nothings.

Alhamdulilah.

 

-A

Center

Take away all the glitz n' glamour in this life.. Remove all the tangible things that surround us and remove all our superficial layers...This toy,that gadget,cloth,makeup,skin mass,contacts and resources,ect..What is left at our center? Hopefully something more than a Gucci bag of bones...Everything returns to dust.

Self check. IsA

A.R.

Deepest Chamber

Had she not been there all along?
Nursed you back to health..
Waited for your return from the desert..
She promised you it would all get better.
Love tied you together.
High on a hope.
Did you forget?...
She crossed the ocean..
Handed you a rope.
Ridiculous smiles and bubbles of laughter.
Like a string of lights at the end of every tunnel..
You were found in her eyes.

The smoke has gotten thick.
There's no clarity.
Only a truth in her heart.
Where shes gone to the deepest chamber..
It is there she'll remain.

A.R.

Invisible

In these walls we call home..
Your love is conditional.
My deeper self, invisible.
Buried inside are these chapters of me..
Chapters of me you'll never see.

A.R.

Yesterday.Today.Tomorrow.

He doesn't have a clue how much he makes you cry.
He has seen instances of tears, he takes it as show..
But little does he know...
The ache you carry, and the tears you try to hold.

He says you can't cling to yesterday..
But yesterday repeats itself..
Its today, and there will always be a tomorrow.
The pattern is clear.

You aren't simply holding a grudge of the past.
He is reopening the scabs on your heart, and it hasn't ever fully healed.
And here you are trying. But it isn't enough.

He doesn't realize that you can not simply unsay or undue the pain that one causes.
Words mean nothing, if your actions repeat themselves.
Silence doesn't erase words that were said.

He doesn't realize that he'll never be happy with her, because his idea of her....
His idea of her is an illusion and this young woman will never be THAT girl.
He will never be happy if he looks to everything she is not, rather..
Than to recognize everything that she Is.
He judges their entire relationship on one bad day...
He forgets everything she has ever done, but he remembers himself and where he is standing..
Had she not helped you along the way?

He will never experience a well rounded love, as long as its based on the conditions of his comfort and his interests alone.

Does he care to go to the deeper places of her heart and her mind? Does he value her outlook on life?
Does he remember she is something more then flesh and bones? She is more than a contract..


One day her heart will feel nothing.

Angry man

That feeling when someone crushes your heart..
You're either doing too much, or not enough...
Or what you're doing isn't done in a particular way..
Ect....ect....

Basically no matter what you say or do, its not 'good enough'

You know your self worth, and it hurts when someone you really love and
who should be your best friend... No longer is.
The pain of this reality.

The pain of feeling put down regardless of your intentions and love from your heart..
The pain of feeling like you are judged as being someone you absolutely are not.


The things you used to take joy in doing, become an expectation, a chore...
An practice that used to come from a place of love, now comes from a robot.
You sucked the joy out of me and you've become a selfish, self righteous, angry man.

I used to see joy in your eyes, more laughter on your face... A positivity that was so
contagious to anyone near.

It hurts to see you always so angry.
It hurts even more that I'm not the one to make you happy.


A.R.

Paper

When I write I learn about myself and the world I'm living in..
Writing puts clarity to the thoughts that flood my mind..
But this day I am avoiding the pouring of my soul into words...
Because I know the truth will confront me.
I know and feel what is in my aching heart, but for a moment more,
I will not recognize them by releasing them onto paper.


A.R.

11:22pm

Your truth

Never let someone tell you " you're not good enough". Maybe you cant stop a person from saying these words, But you do not have to accept it as your personal truth. Allahu Alim.

You are not defined by anothers opinion of yourself. You are not made whole by contact of another's skin. You are more then everything they say you are not.

Remember what you do and who you are. Your heart, your intention and inner gifts are what make you special. Don't lose sight of what you contribute to life. Surround yourself with nurturers of souls..not those who crush them.

Stay kind and compassionate...
Even if it means walking away from the one you wish to understand the most.
Don't cave into anger and pain.
Do not feed it. This is shaytan's joy.

Love is to be protected.
Sometimes the act of guarding your heart or what is left of it, hurts..

A.S.

More

You're the flame of my soul.

You're all I ever wanted.

Yet tears may fall, hands reaching to the stars..

You're the only one that can take me to that place.

The place where my blood boils, where my heart sinks..

The same place you take my mind for a spin, soul of souls transcending to new elevations..
The place of pure ecstasy.

Like a moth to the flame..

I couldn't leave where I came.

Even if the vision of want were to blurr..

I'll always need you.

Fire on fire or deepest of blues,

You bring me so much pleasure, sometimes pain.

I can't have enough of you.

You.

You..

Only you...

Beyond this flesh, you'll drive me insane.

Here I am, and I've come back for more.

A.S.

Either way

Either she does not do enough.. Or she does way too much. What a position you unknowingly put her in. When there is no up, or down,past or future. Wrong for caring, wrong for trying..Wrong for what is within her control and burdened for what she can not. Her current state of thought and being is all shes got...Deep in her heart she chooses her Creator's favor. Allahu alim.

A.S.

Still waters run deep

Anger..pain...fear....

Some people choose to let it consume them. They let it take over any rational thought, and allow these to smother their own heart. They let their blood boil, and theire mind goes along with it. Words spew from their mouths and hit your skin like lava to a petal. No sense, no hearing, no understanding, even the softest of words, to them can be seen as an attack. There will never be any understanding and you will not be understood. Pure ugliness in speech and behavior is far removed from the practices of the great Examples sent to us.

Some people choose to remain in thought. They let their breath steady themselves and regain control by choosing what thoughts to accept, and what words to express. Sometimes, they must choose to remain silent, where their words can not be altered, for the truth that resides within' can not be changed... Knowing the truth in peaceful silence is better than speaking the truth confronted by rage. Its like being a human mirror, and not all will like what they see, and will hate you for it.

Sometimes these people walk away, without a word to say...and it is why I will always remember that Still waters run deep...and the choice is always yours.

A.S.

Certain

Have you ever felt so certain that no matter what you go through in life, despite being uncertain of the details, you could be certain that whatever comes to pass will benefit you in a great way? That the hope and light you feel in your heart, regardless of which chamber it's stored in, will always live. Follow your heart and the flesh will follow.

This has and will be something that'll never change in my life.

A.S.

Never fade away

You may forgive but you never forget! You don't just "forget" when people treat you like you're a 3rd class person living in their empire. You don't forget when others neglect your feelings and would rather nurture their assumptions about you and are ultimately feeding their own EGO.

Yeah we will walk and talk in and out of a space with grace, simply because these words will never sink in, face to face...
Never let negativity of others towards you or others become your reality. Know and accept yourself because if you don't.... You will feel nothing but heartache and disappointment. You are not the scum of the earth. You are the lotus praising the sky and the water's ripples.

You are a light never to be dimmed.

-Amie @-/----

Body

I am not this body.

I am not this flesh’s pain.

Not this headache.

Nor can I be defined by the tint of my skin, or..

The size of its mass, or..

By the cloth that covers it and how it drapes.

I am more than a vision.

I am a thought, an idea that touches your soul and..

Your thoughts, are what touch mine.

A.S.

light

For all the shadows in the world... there is plenty of light. Truth like a multifaceted diamond,or a piece of glass. We are of the many reflections of this light. We're all a piece of the puzzle. ..and for as much as we would like to think we have all the answers from our own standpoint, it is still only a perspective of that light. I want for my neighbor what id want for myself...and I will always try to remain humble in my view of the world and my place in it. We dont need "tolerance"... we need to embrace each other.

Ameen.

A.S.

life is short

Life is short...happiness radiates from within and this moment is what matters most. Alhamdulilah

A.S.

Truly Be..

Life is meant to be explored, don't allow yourselves to become stagnant in one place. Let your minds wander to other worlds.. Earth isn't the only one. We are now, we are always... This flesh and this time are only capsules of the mind... We are here and we are there.. Set your spirit free,this is truly the way to Be.

A.S.

Dying inside

Its always the one you love the most who breaks your heart.

If only you could love yourself just as much.

It hurts to know that no matter how much you try, its never going to be enough.

I've learned my lesson as it is repeating itself.

You spoil someone with love, they will never realize their wrongs till you are GONE.

Dying inside.

A.S.

crushed.

Crushed by the hand that plucked her.

A.S.

Reading old writings..

Because its raw and real. Its through those moments we learn, not just from an easy breezy walk in the park, however beautiful it may be.. There is also beauty to grow from pain.

A.S.

I have to say.. I find this to be true as it resonates with me. I have written out my thoughts, ideas and emotions on a blog aka journal over the years and it has helped me a great deal in capturing the thoughts that take up space in my heart and mind. It helps you release energy.. You are able to plunge deep into a thought or feeling, you can see yourself from a new perspective when you read back on what you wrote, and you take lessons from the varied experiences you analyze and explore through your writing.

More often than not, good or bad, for me to move onto the next chapter, I have to write the current one down first.

Writing your way to happiness