Tryin'

And sometimes I feel overcome..
An ache that won't leave this chest..
Other times it's buried deep down,
A numbness

So I wonder how it goes..
Life as it progresses.
 
No..
I'm not trying to dwell..
I'm tryin' to reminiscence on good times..
Push the shadows away.
Tryin' not to forget..
But how could I?

And so here I am..
Tryin' to surrender yet also be in control.

This flesh concealing a universe stirring within'
Oh...to feel it all.

Grandma..

You always taught me how to make something from nothing. Thank you for nurturing my imagination. My memories of us are always the stuff of magic..We didn't always have full bellies, but we always had them full of laughter.. Thank you for letting the child in me BE. You didn't always have someone there to back you, but you were ALWAYS there fighting the good fight for me. You always stuck to what was right, no matter how difficult the trial.. Thank you for teaching me how to live with Integrity..You always were there to hold my little hand and even when the roles had been switched... I'm grateful to have had your hand in mine all this way. How fortunate I had been. If you hadn't been the pillar of strength that you were, I wouldn't be here today.
I hope that on the other side you can see just how important you were & the impact you continue to make in my life,my children's..There aren't ever going to be enough words for me to say.
Alhamdulilah  

-A

Blessed

It just blows my mind to hear such profound, thoughtful things coming from a child that has a innocent and fresh perspective.. It amazes me..humbles me and breaks my heart all at once.  Blessed.

-A

We Ache

We ache in our hearts not because they've gone on.. But because we must wait behind in these skin & bones.. Till He lets us go.

-A

You're Stronger

You're stronger than you may feel. It can feel as if you're in the middle of a storm whilst absorbing the weight of the world. To care, to understand, to emphasize & resonate.. To embody the quiet understanding that is beyond human definition.

-A

I'm still here

I'm holding onto you with every ounce of me.
Like the teardrop hanging in my soul.
See past this still shell..frozen in time.
I promise you I'm still here, loving you
Keep cradling my forehead between your shoulder and neck.
Slowly but surely you'll bring me to.
I promise I'm still here loving you.

-A

Tread lightly

Tread this earth lightly.. Stay humble... Don't boast... 
Never let pride lead the way.. 
Everyone experiences pain.
Let love, empathy, forgiveness and compassion lead the way.
Empty vessels make so much noise in our world today.. 
We don't hear about the quiet strength that is embodied in the good of people. 
Quiet almost invisible heroes, creating their ripples...

-A