Afraid To Lose

A bundle of raw emotion..
Memories of good times and bad times..
In all areas of my life..
Trying to hold myself together..
Barely holding it at the seams of this shell of a body.
My heart is overwhelmed..
Elation to a new level..
Unimaginable..
So why do I feel scared..
Why do these tears flow?
I'm happy...
Perhaps I'm scared..
Scared of losing it all.
I don't want to lose this..
My heart can't bear it..
I don't want to let down..
Don't want to be let down..
My heart can't bear it..

A Few Words

It's funny how a couple words..
A few syllables from someone's mouth
Can touch your soul so deeply..
Words you never thought of..
Words that you never knew you needed to hear..
But when you do hear them..
They melt away some of the pain..
Lift your heart soundly..
Steadfast "I'm proud of you"
Words that wrapped me in a cocoon
Words I wont forget..
Words no matter how powerful..
Can never convey such feelings in their entirety

Mash-Allah

Thrilled through and through..
My mind is in a Sufi spin…
Heart beating a steady calm..
Happiness rushing through my veins..
Head to toes.

A warmth..
A glow..
A beautiful radiating calm..

Mash-Allah...

So Much..

Silence..
When wanting to be heard..
Sleep..
To feel ..
Stare..
When there is so much to say..

Stand Idle

I want to sing to you from the depths of my soul..
A moving melody…
My heart song

I want to reach out from my center
Touch and realize how small I am…
Realize the universe’s mystery.

I want to stare into your eyes..
Stand here idle without saying a word..
I'll have learned everything there is to know..

Black Hole

Seemingly beautiful..
Like looking out to a new galaxy..

I was reaching for something..
But little did I know..
I was falling upside down..
Into a black hole I fell.

The fall takes you for surprise..
A shock to your system
Amidst everything dark and confusion sets in..

Black hole..
Little did I know what was awaiting me on the other side
From the dark storm in slow motion..
A sudden vision of peace & calm..
Like the serenity of the Milky Way..
A never ending glow of stars..
A warm light..
Your heart greeted mine...

Free!

I was searching for my freedom
I found it within' you..
Free..
I am just that with you
My heart is light..
I'm soaring!

Only You

Time shared between us feel like fleeting moments...
We listen with our hearts...
Lingering onto every single breath..
Hours that pass, feel like minutes.
One day shy of a week since our merging of heart and soul..
And I feel my heart has been consumed by yours for as long as I can remember.
My thirst of knowing You may be pacified, but never quenched.
I can never have enough
You stir something inside of me...
Every fiber of my being longs for You and only You...

My Heart

As long as I have your heart I am happy..
I wouldn’t mind if we were to live in a straw hut or an igloo..
Wanderers of the world.
I see you all around me..
You are in everything.
This being so..
I’ll always be content with what you have brought to my world...
My heart...

My Heaven

I thank God for blessing my earthly existence with your love...
I thank Him for giving my life a meaning..
Making it full and rich...
With your love...
My heart is full!
Our hearts have merged and we are One..
Here on earth we’ll share countless moments we’ll cherish.
Oh but what comfort it is knowing that when our spirits are lifted..
Our love lives forever..
It knows no space, nor time...
Our love will live everywhere and always..
You are my Heaven.

YOU...

I remember a time when I felt so sure.. 

Not a doubt in my heart or in my mind.. 

Not an obstacle I couldn't climb.

I remember how fast and willing I gave 110%.. 

Your happiness and pain my own..

With you I had motivation..

With you I was inspired..

You were the sunrise and sunset I looked forward to every single day.. 

You consumed my every thought, my every breath.. 

Every night’s dream and every day's daydream..

I lived and breathed YOU...

My love was unshakable.

BUT I guess there is such a thing as having too much of a good thing. 

Is there such a thing as spoiling someone with LOVE? 

Did I give too much?? 

Is there such a thing???

I gave you my all and then some... 

It was never enough..

Never enough.. 

I foresaw this day..

Warned you in vain and the day has come...

I’m empty..

Expired...

Drained...

A dream within a dream...



-Amie.Rivara-