Saturday, December 14, 2013

Until the final hour

These eyes...
These lips...
This flesh...
And these words..
They can only show you a glimpse of a love..
Our story only a fragment of the mirrors and diamonds scattered upon Light

These things may satiate you, but only temporarily..
Not the sweetest of words, nor the softest of touches could convey this heart.

As long as you witness me, my soul will forever tease yours..
Loving until the final hour approaches.

It is then the work of love will bear its fruit..

A.S.

Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Holding on

She holds a great treasure and she clings to it on her path..
Within’ it..
A love is ever growing, unconditional, and ever lasting…
An indescribable feeling, an esoteric sensation.
This love..
Like warm slow running water…
Misty air..
Teasing rays of light peeking through dancing leaves..
Fresh and sweet of honey and dew.
After a loving word,a softness left at the tip of the tongue & resides on lips. 
An expression of many form…rejuvenation of many..
Every breath is a first.
This treasure is an open secret…
It appears a mystery, yet it is within’ one’s grasp.
Along one’s way hold onto her..
Just as she holds onto you.
A.S.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

He Remains

And she escapes the confines of this world to her dreaming.
As the night surrounds her, she thinks of him.
Lingering there till the dawn peeks in..
Rays of light creeping upon her, she becomes self aware..
Finally she shuts her eyes and lets in sleep.
In either state of consciousness... Awake or asleep...
He remains.



A.S.

White noise

At times the time passes with silence.
Nothing has changed, yet here I am in the state I'm in
Silence becomes louder than ever,it's white noise fills my brain.
In my heart I yearn.

I tell myself white lies to get through the space and time.

But in a moment You cut through the static of my own thoughts.
Little did you know you had me at hello.

All the things I told myself to endure the pain of this physical space and time..
All vanish within'this high.

I'll die a million times..
Just to feel you bringing me back to life over and over again.

A.S.

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

Trapped?

We have many obstacles to overcome in life... 
Sometimes knowing the truth is all you need, 
Sometimes it feels like its not enough. 
You push your body to the edge... 
Inwardly or outwardly. 
Sometimes its a choice, sometimes you've got none. 
Truth never changes... and that's the truth. 
We are more than what others make of our bodies, 
and we ARE more than these flesh and bones.

I'm more than this body.. 
I'm a loving free spirited soul and this Dunya will never trap that.

-A

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

12/3/13

Have no fear while you do what you gotta do.. He's got you where you need to be.. He is Subhan wa ta'ala.. Just make every moment worth while, try hard and love harder.

A.S.

Saturday, November 30, 2013

In these eyes

And in a magical way you've made your way inside ..
In my own world, you've discovered.

Under this thick over sized sweater I hide within' myself..
Head in a trance..
The night is young and sleep wont take me.

Experiencing You.
You're beneath my skin...
Like the oxygen flowing through my blood..
Nobody but the lovers of the world know this feeling.

A hypnotic melody repeating itself...
I find my soul dancing to its tune..
Swirling on a high, head in the milky way...

Feeling all of you within' me...
Feeling myself in everything.

In these eyes and this smile, you live.

A.S.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Fallin' stars

Alhamdulilah....
For being able to witness the beauty there is in the world..
No matter how dark it may appear..
There is always the silver lining...
The first bloom..

Alhamdulilah...
In life full of bittersweet.
To have the capacity to love and to witness love.
Not of fairy tales...
But of pure light,and all that is in the cosmos...
Falling stars we are...
And the journey doesn't end..

Seek within' ourselves..
You'll see the world with a new set of eyes..
That of a newborn.

Beauty is never too far.
Every moment has a treasure.
Every moment is a revelation.

A.S.

Monday, November 25, 2013

Chalice

And she loves to the utmost degree..
Her cup always full..
Sweeter than the sweetest of honey..

What an emotion...
The mere mention of You.
You, whether seen or felt..
Overflows the chalice.

What a sensation he stirs within' her breast..
Her inner most self overflowing.

A.S.

This ocean

And she sees not with her two eyes,
But the eyes of her heart.

Immersed in a love, this deep ocean..
He gently floats to the top..

You may not know your direction,
But I'm well aware..
You're not where I am not.

Ya Omri drift on and on..
Your soul graces this ocean.



A.S.

Saturday, November 23, 2013

Bigger than us

Just because you love someone..
Doesn't mean you have a right..
Sometimes to really love a person, is to stand back..

It doesn't always mean goodbye.

You can't miss what was never yours,
Even when the heart says otherwise..

Sometimes it means holding your own weight of emotions to yourself..
To not feel compelled through words, but demonstrate tender care in our actions..
To understand sometimes expression is in the quiet place..
To be content with the truth within' ourselves.
Soul versus flesh, it's truly mind over matter.

Sometimes what is necessary isn't the easiest thing to accept..
But when you truly love someone, you are willing to try..

Its an art of selflessness..
To have faith in the order of the cosmos..
To know the answers are bigger than ourselves.

The answer is bigger than you or me.



A.S.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

You're of silver linings

To the one friend I've always sought, the one I always needed,,
I couldn't find you,I didn't know you, still I believed in you.
You've come to me upon a breeze,
Through heavy rain and glistening morning dew..
Still yet resilient, always by my side.
Never seen, but always felt..

You've taught me that..
I was never truly as alone as I had ever felt..
You've taught me to be my own friend and to love myself.
You've been the pleasant reminder of what I know to be buried inside.
All these things are at your very core..
You've shown me through example..
And Oh, what a beautiful example you are.

You're so much more than my mirror dear friend..
You nurtured the seed inside..
Gentle love, the opium of a life worth living.

Through every storm, you are the omnipotent silver lining..
Through calmer weather, you are the soft breeze that envelopes me.

You are more than you perceive,
Yet I understand it all very well.
The truth resides within' me.
Your proof is right in front of you..
Shes looking back at you!
For once believe in these words I say.

You've brought me a fuller life..
Filling the void I had been haunted with.
No other could sparkle & reflect back at me like you do, no other will.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder they say..
You are what you see..
Two meditations from one light, is what we are..

Here we are shining.
Not of yesterday, not of tomorrow..
But Now and Always.

My dearest friend, praise be to Allah..



A.S.

Tonight or tomorrow

Although I've witnessed hate and love in many forms..
What a miracle it is to even feel..
Love may bring us joy and pain…
Yet I would not change this balance of the two emotions..
Without the darkness, how could I have come to witness such ambient light?
A miracle of love has saved me from becoming like the numb, hollow, walking dead..
Satisfied with the treasure in my heart..
I could die tonight…tomorrow..
The truth in my soul has and will set me free.
A.S.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Fate

Never in my mind did I imagine this.
To love with a hope and a dream, tainted with by fear.
To love with a bitter sweetness.

The one she always believed in and loved like no other..
Could be the very one to crush her..
Never did I foresee that day.

Living for a hope and a wish to see the dream through..
The dream we worked so hard for.
But buried deep inside me are the bitter threats that escaped your lips.

I will push forward hard and love even harder..
No matter where fate takes us, I will have loved.
I will not let fear of the past and the unknown plague my heart..
Content I will be with the truth that is my very soul..

A part of me feels the tinge of fear..
But I wont allow this pain to consume me..
I will fight with love..
Like the water that smooths the rocks into pebbles..
My tears will not have been in vain...

No matter what the outcome is..
Within' my soul I will never lose its capacity to love.

A.S.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Dearest Heart

Dearest I love you..
Sweet love, lay yourself down..
And I’m right next to you.
The sooner you close your eyes, closer tomorrow will be.

I’m closer than I can say..
Trust in me and believe when I say..
Its only a matter of time..

Our flesh and spirit will make its weave on the paths we’re on..
We’ll reunite once again..
From here it feels high up and away..
Time is a lost idea..
Torn by the hour..

Nestled in my soul is a higher feeling..
An invincible truth…
Tree of life the seed has sprouted.

Understanding this, there is a sense of Euphoria.

Close your eyes with me..
As your heart beat makes rhythm with mine...

A.S.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Desert walk


Standing back.

There you are...
Carrying on in your own way.

Here I am...
Watching and waiting..
Standing in the background.
Dreaming with a wish weighing heavily on my heart

A.S.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Always

When time passes on by..
Don't forget what remains behind her smile.
Genuine are her words and her care..
Her secret is there.
The feelings she once shared, will always remain.
Despite her calm appearance, her heart will never be tamed.
Nothing she ever felt could be altered..
For a time, she showed you a glimpse of its intensity..
You thought you knew...
But this you can not fully understand, her secret heart.
In her heart of hearts she is calling out..
So long as she lives on Earth or Star.
When time passes on by..
She will see your face..
Your name engraved at her deepest..
She'll continue treading on, suppressing the fire within'...
Nothing would have changed what she had revealed years past.
In her secret heart and in its deepest place, she'll live with the truth..

Years gone by..
She'll remember this moment of expression.
Just as she would be born anew..

Years gone by..
Always remember she still loves you.

A.S.

close

If only you knew the joy you bring me..
Although hung on your every word.
You need not say a word at all..
For I would be content with you near me.
Closer than close.

A.S.

To the flame

In my time of need..
You gave me your tenderness.
Everything that love is by definition.
Enveloped by You, I could never have enough.
I was drawn like a moth to a flame..
But all along the fire was inside of me...
Feeling your warmth..
Your hand I'll never let go.

A.S.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Not lost

Never a love lost if I've got you in my heart.


A.S.

star

And her heart is like the star blinking back at her...a glimmer of hope.
 
a.s.

Journey

They walk on through the desert…
Open and vast, there’s no end in sight.

Dark and cool are the nights…
Their hearts like those hanging stars..
Twinkling and shining..
Hanging onto a hope..

Their souls containing many passages, just like being lost in the galaxies..
Each with a different story to be held.
Multifaceted their reality is…
Mirrors within’ mirrors..
Light upon light she remembers Him on her journey.

A.S.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Channeled

Channel my love and energy you say..
I know dear, and I do try.
But in this life I'll find myself flowing through rivers and streams..
My soul feels more than this body will ever be able..
My soul's essence is very much there & here, elevating..
While this body only knows of its mortal stance, base and low...

One sweet day, all of the worldly confines will be left behind...
My love no longer held and restrained..
I'll be free alongside you, spirits having flown.

A.S.

Anticipating

I want to call out to you..
Without a worry about the the time or day...
But here my heart whispers to itself.
I want to call out to you and hear your voice filling my spirit..
I know, even angels must rest..
Anticipating your next move,our next moment...

A.S.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Met in the middle

Words were spoken, sweeter than honey..
Bottled emotions had to be released, like a force of nature
Caught up in the moment and dazed..
I had to pinch myself, bring myself down.
The feelings I ever felt, met and synchronized with yours..
I may never hear those words again..
But forever will I remember the moment our souls met in the middle.
From this moment on I'm fully aware of the words left unspoken..
Those words once said are buried but very much alive in my soul.
And despite my effort to refrain..
I'm sure you will always remain aware of my secrets.




A.S.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Friendship

They had a dream

Running with this vision..
They escaped the confines of this dunya.
A love without condition..
Secret counsel they sought reassurance & validation..
A seed was nurtured inside..
Picking up the pieces, putting them back together.
Pleasant reminders of the good remnants left behind,
They reflected each others inner truth..
Together they continued on.

A very special bond, there’s no breaking this union
Genuine, tender care and sincerest of hearts..
A true friendship indeed.

A.S.

Monday, November 4, 2013

You're my mantra

Hidden truths I hold..
In my mind these words play.
Your voice a teasing whisper in my ear.
In my mind I see your undisclosed self..
I plea with you not to stop & you oblige..
You're no longer a mystery.
You're love becomes my mantra

In but a moment, we're all knowing of the deepest secrets.



A.S.

Cotton candy cloud

Heart pounding to the beat.
I can't help it..
This song, this melody plays through me..
Dance and sway...
Poetry in motion, I can't stop.
I'm a heavy dreamer..
Cherry cola soda lips..
Dark starry night and neon lights...
Sweet pea and freesia fills the air.
There's a melody playing and a vision in my mind.
Through rose colored lenses I see the world.
This is very much my reality..
I can't stop, I wont stop..
Soul leading my feet deeper

Immersed in this cotton candy cloud, I ain't comin' down.

A.S.

Words said in haste

Choose your words carefully...

The words we say are like drops of water...
Ripples are they're affect on the people around us...
Let us spend of ourselves wisely..
To contemplate before releasing these words..
To separate ourselves from reactionary emotion..
To give ourselves enough time to listen.
To listen is to not take words at face value,
but instead listening to what a person's intentions are..
Understanding the words left unsaid.

Sometimes the line of communication is only after distancing ourselves from the noise, inwardly and outwardly..It means to not make assumptions or accusations..Where is our proof? It means to stomp on our egos, and opening up our hearts.

Lets not be blinded by Self..Don't let there be a moment of regret over words said in haste.

A.S.



Thursday, October 31, 2013

He's watching

With charm,charisma,sympathy,guilt,ego, ect..
Some turn these into tools of manipulation..
They maybe able to fool the whole world...
But there is no fooling The One,...

Lies and tales they may spin..
Feeling completely justified in their wrong doings.
Spinning their own web, one day they will succumb...
To an end of their own doing.

Haven't they any shame?
HE is watching....
As God is my witness, I carry the truth in my soul.

A.S.

Monday, October 28, 2013

beyond this pain and hurt.
beyond any words..
nothing stirs me inside anymore.
completely numb.
An ache at my center but losing feeling in my nerves,
I can't sense my blood flowing through my veins any longer.
Broken spirit, hovering over this body

Learning what it feels like to be dead yet alive.

and my whole world is collapsing around me.


learning the real meaning of being alone.

Sunday, October 27, 2013

Potions

You've brought me a joy and a love immeasurable..
Nothing can severe me from this very moment I am lingering in..

You have come and gone..
But traces of you, your signature, are left on my soul..

Oh what a mix this is, your chemistry..

I can't drink your magic potion, but..
I'm high from its essence..
A sweetness like honeydew..
A balmy and seductive bakhoor..

You cloak me..

High in this feeling I will not define it, for it would be in vain...

Swimming in the most pleasing shade of blue...
I'm plunging deeper and deeper inside of you.

A.S.


Saturday, October 26, 2013

Agony

If you truly knew my mind..

All the secrets I contain in a
beautiful storm…

Lost and overcome you would become…
Fast you would take flight from these four walls..

Knowing myself, I retreat inwardly…

As you go about your way,
I watch you in silence, with a growing agony in my soul.

Bittersweet this is.


A.S.

Phantom Lover

I miss my phantom lover..
I miss what was never mine..

That brief hug where I felt a shiver..
Longer and tighter it could have been..
In dreams.

Your playful pat on my head...
Should have been fingers through my hair..
In dreams.

Near but missed opportunities..
My flesh n' soul was on high alert.
He is "near"

In complete awe, witnessing You renders me weak.
Becoming deaf, dumb and blind I melt..

Behind this curtain is the mystery of a love..
A secret pupil I've become..

You may see a glimpse through these eyes..They can't lie.

Spoken yet unspoken..

I wish for you to witness me.
Only in dreams with my phantom love.

A.S.

Mountain Tops

My soul wants to scream from mountain tops..

In this moment you are so close, yet so far away.
A moment of many...

I long to say to you with childlike abandon, I love you...
I love you...
Yet these are only words, they too I must keep.

Within' my body and soul lies the real meaning.
Only in dreams am I at liberty..

Never will my heart tire of holding this truth.
In time this flesh will return to clay..
The secret I cling to will take my soul to higher elevations..

Beyond those mountain tops.



A.S.

Friday, October 25, 2013

Just sayin'

We shouldn't brag or boast of having knowledge, or what seems apparent of... as we are viewing from a perspective,which is limited in of and itself. Stop preaching, start practicing. An isolated experience does not equate to wisdom of a lifetime. The more we learn, the less we try to hold ourselves above others, the more humble we'd become.

just saying..


A.S.

Don't own it

Don't take people's ego and arrogance personally... Often times its insecurity in one form or another and what they assume or project of others is often what they know to be true of themselves.

A.S.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

Through those doors

So consumned by a feeling..
She couldn't contain herself..
The door was opened, and she entered.

But in a moment of many...
She senses her foolishness..
Naked and vulnerable.

Feeling overwhelmed, overcome and helpless to her dreaming and wanting..
She feels like a fool..

Struggling to regain composure..
She retreats within' herself once more.

A.S.

8:42pm

Her heart held in her hands...

Her soul on a cloud...


A.S.

I could die

Today is the best day of my life..
Simply because you’re in it..
Simply for my soul having experienced yours.

As my flesh bears witness..

I could die content.


A.S.

Communicate

Communication in a relationship is crucial and underrated .. Our ideas of what defines that communication varies from one person to the next.. It is not that being in a relationship gives you the liberty to unleash your emotions without examined behavior. But its important to have that foundation set together, and early.
                                
Communication means being open to hear things you may not like or want to hear about yourself.  It's the ability to do an honest self analysis and to look at what/how we contribute or take from a relationship. Communication means listening and validating someone else's feelings, regardless. Feelings should be validated, and if necessary, adjusted to show your true intentions through loving expression. Communication is the ability to disagree - - yet to do so with love because if there is something to be learned, it's achieved together.

It should be done with Diplomacy because you want that person to be next to you, to be by your side -- You're a team after all, not in a match.

Its all about lifting each other up, and this means ridding ourselves of our egos.



A.S.

Longing

I long for you to be here with me..
I would lose myself in you.
No thought of the troubles..
Just melt in a love..
Complete in forgiveness, of giving and receiving..
Nothing but the feeling of bliss.
Ecstasy of a love, a feeling that has no description.
Power to overcome all other emotions of Self..
The ego,anger,hate,fear, and insecurities Surrender..
Pure ecstasy takes over.

A.S.

As you like

If making you happy were to leave you be..
I would retreat from you..
As you like...
Your happiness is my own..
For as much as this would make my flesh ache...

I will always see your radiance..
There is no dimming your light.

No matter where I am, you will always be..
Soul of my soul...
My treasure.


A.S.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

Kindle

Dark and deafening is the night
My body is still and listening..
Staring into darkness, yet seeing you so vividly..
Loud is the plea of my heartbeat..

Closing my eyes I try to push you away, into the back of my mind...

There is no quieting this obsession..
My soul is overcome

Am I hopelessly mad?...

How is it I'm to be consumed for a love of you,
And all I will ever have is a glimpse inside?..

Yet this glimpse is more than I can ask for...
I keep you on this pedestal.
Similar yet so different we are..
I've witnessed a tenderness in you..
Even in the darkest of nights,
I'm drawn to your light.
You're kindle to my fire..

A.S.

Monday, October 21, 2013

Essence

These feelings I own will never be written..
My deepest and most intricate of love..
The ink will never meet paper..
This obsession I'll forever yearn to reveal..
A slow burning desire at my core..
But forever they'll remain a mystery..
My soul is chained to you.
Near or far...
Known or unbeknownst to you..
This life or the next..

You'll always live within' me..I'll always live for you..
Your soul's essence I'll cling to.


A.S.

Sunday, October 20, 2013

Love isn't pain

Love doesn't know hate nor anger.
Love is soul soothing, stirring, and enlightening.
No people, love doesn't have to hurt...
Love is so much simpler than the false definitions we fool ourselves into believing..

Real, genuine, unadulterated love does not crush your soul, but elevates it into higher thought and greater being.

A.S.

New existence

I'll wait for you.
Tonight..
Tomorrow..
Days..
Years.
Human or light years...

My soul holds you nearer to me than these words can ever reach..
Deeper than this flesh could ever keep....

In a grand moment, this body will meet the Eternal..

My soul will greet yours...
The light I hold will not be contained...
As free as love and thought is itself..
Everywhere and in everything..

We will simply BE.

A.S.

mystery

And there will always be that part of me..
That part of me that will remain behind curtains..
Refuge this inner truth has sought.
To the deepest place of my soul, it will always linger..

This world, this life may have its varying shades of shadow..
But, there is no dimming this light..
Buried in my soul it may be..
My lifeline... my never ending current.

Secret poetry in motion, my body has become..


A.S.

Saturday, October 19, 2013

Care free swirl

Friday, October 18, 2013

Calling you

My heart is screaming from the highest elevations and from the deepest place of my soul..

Think of me!
Share..
confide..
Create idle bliss..
Call out for me, I am waiting!
Every moment is drawing me in,
Yet those moments couldn’t come soon enough.
My thoughts held prisoner..
Only you set them free..
You make me feel alive..

My soul is calling..


A.S.

Thursday, October 17, 2013

Over the rainbow

The silence says it all..or does it?
This white noise can leave one disillusioned..
Silence.
Understanding it, yet resenting.
Getting nowhere with the space between..
This feeling I hold wont break down.

Loving forever can't be wrong..
This feeling tears through bricks and fog..
Silenced,never
As it resonates within' you..

I'll see you on the other side of the rainbow..


A.S.

Changed yet not...

Life is always going in its cycles...
We are constantly learning about the world we live in..
At least we're supposed to be with every experience that comes our way...

I'm not the same person I was 5-10 years ago, yet I feel a part of has always remained unchanged...

That part is the inner innocence and purity that we are all born with..

No I'm not going to be that girl of some odd years ago,
But I have not and will never cease to evolve..

For all the changes that life brings my way..
Let it be for the better.


A.S.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Everlasting

I long for everlasting,eternal life..
Yet I don't long for my death.
I don't want to simply give up and let my soul drift away..

On this path I'm struggling, I know myself.
Lord knows how much I try,
To have loved and lost..
To be on this flux of spiritual elevation..
I want this love I hold inside to live forever..

I may not see the fruit of my struggle in this life..
But my feet are deeply rooted..
And it is my hope that I'll reap the rewards in the everlasting life..
May my living and dying be in a state of belief..

I may not have what I do cherish and love given to me in the flesh..
But I've had a taste,a glimpse of something beautiful.
I'll forever struggle to preserve it.

If I were to die tomorrow,
I would be content in my soul..
Hanging onto the hope that..
One sweet day there will be our reward.

I'm sacrificing my flesh, and this worldly life..
A genuine love lives within' this soul..
And its strong enough to pull me through.

Allahu alim.

A.S.

One sweet day

If i am blind..

How is it I can tell you what I see in front of me?
I can only tell you what it is I feel..
My personal truth, you can't deny.

If the only thing I could do right in the world was to love you...
Would that be enough?

What I would give to have just one sweet day with you.
Carefree, not a thought of the world outside..
Living in a world of our own.

But my soul's ache can match the longing of my flesh..
I wouldn't trade eternal love and life for this one day..
For as much as my flesh cries for you..

My soul begs for our love to live forever in Jannah...



A.S.


Sunday, October 13, 2013

Walkin' off cliffs

Feeling the tremble to my very bones.
Not the sweet kind..

Numb, raw and feeling exposed are my nerves,
No matter how much I hold myself, or rest my face in my hands..

Emotionally and physically I feel myself struggling to pick back up,
Stronger is my sense of gravity..
Walking off cliffs.

Taking a deep breath and holding on to myself,
The counter, the wall, this pillow...

My heart..


A.S.

Woods 2

She finds herself at the end of her road,
Off in the distance she sees the familiar woods,
There she once fell onto her knees,having
waited for you.

She finds herself standing at a crossroads within' and outward.
Back to those woods she will disappear, as you once had..

There she'll hear the sound of her own heart beat,
This time without anyone to hear its echo..

She wanted to be found, and close she came..
But a mystery she will forever remain.
For she doesn't belong in this world..
To the woods she'll retreat.

A flower(f) to you..

A.S.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

The lion's angel

Side by side..
The lion stood near his angel..
She knows her destination, but not the way..
Steady and grounded, he shows her..
In trust and admiration, she follows his footsteps..
A gentle love between them..
Within' him she reflects and witnesses a never ending light..
So long as she inspires, He will guide and protect..
Forever companions..

A.S.


simply existing

If only I could be free from this dunya & myself..

free from wants
free from needs
free from the dreaming
free from feeling.
to be a robot to get me through this life..

I rather die with a taste of the truth than to be completely void of all these.. Bittersweet is this existence.

a.s.

Friday, October 11, 2013

Buried

And i will go on pretending..
That this is just a moment to pass...
Yet in ten years time I will look back and still feel the same..
In my heart of hearts, I know this to be true..
Since day one, I still feel as I do.

I'll pretend I didn't expose my inner heart..
Only to have to hide myself again.


You will always live inside...
And to the grave I'll take this secret truth buried within'.


A.S.

A wish.

I just want you to experience real love.
To be held in someone's arms and feel all is well in the world and in the universe..
To feel like a baby protected with loving,tender care...
To go from a childlike state of comfort to a untamed lion surging with desire.
To feel that nothing else in the world exists when you're together...
You're living in a new world,a new existence..
A love you don't have to hold back, you don't have to reserve or contain yourself..
A love you can simply BE with wild ambition, and care free..
A love that cocoons you, exposes your light and contains your darkness..
Merging light with light, the scales will weigh ....


A.S.

Lotus

Longing for that moment..
One sweet moment,you're sitting near
As you talk in your way, I'll be silently admiring.

You'll look to me..
Without a word my eyes will convey my happiness,and my longing..
You'll see a change in me..
Longing for this moment I hold your gaze.
Without a word, all would be felt..
Telepathy at its best...

I'll extend my hand, opening lotus..
You'll rest your hand in mine..
Holding onto you in silence..
A soft kiss to this hand I'll never let go.

Longing for just this one moment ..

A.S.

Thursday, October 10, 2013

Throw away the key

You don't realize how much you remedy my heart..
Right when I think I'm to carry the extra load this path I'm on,
You lifted some of the pain, eased my burdens.
So deep in this love, I can't make sense of myself..

Keep me in your secret place, throw away the key.



A.S.

Return

Dearest friend,

You last left to a world unknown to me..
To the woods you had retreated.
As I watched you disappear, I was already waiting...

Alone I felt..
Alone with my heart's echo.

How I was wrong, you heard my cries..
Steadfast, you were there when I was on my knees..
You've given me your hand, this time I wont let go.

A flower to you my friend,my love, my dearest heart.



A.S.

He asked...

He asked for me...

And that's all I ever wanted..

A.S.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Angel

Angel you say..
Perhaps trapped in this body...
I'm fighting against this flesh.
With every moment I'm learning..
I'm a red blooded woman..


A.S.

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Something from nothing

People come and go..
Whether they be family,friend or fo.
Used to not relying on others for happiness.
But here you've got me standing tall..
It takes only a special kind of soul to pull you through..
Giving me strength..something from nothing.
Only you.

A.S.

Loving you

My soul of my soul..
Loving you runs deep..
You’re my never ending current..
These waters run deep.
Oh soul…
I don’t have the will to fight..
As long as you flow within’ me..
My vessel will continue.

A.S.


Taking my breath

You have me captured and paralyzed..
I feel my senses stirring with every single breath..
Slow and steady..
I try to regain control..
Mind over body..
Close my eyes..
Traveling from one loving thought to the next..
Quiet obsession, I can't stop imagining a love unleashed..
I can't escape these dreams..I don't know if I want to..

Every time I close my eyes, you're taking my breath away.

A.S.

Monday, October 7, 2013

Exposed

This rush I feel flowing through my veins..
Leaves me feeling completely undone..
Have I gone mad?
I can’t let go…
I’m completely vulnerable and exposed as you witness Me.


A.S.

Find me


My heart feels heavy and sometimes these thoughts lead me to an isolation of my own doing.
As the truths I hold inside can never see the light of day..
Multifaceted is my reality...
Multifaceted are the quality of my thoughts..
I've exposed to you only an essence of me..
You've given me some form of release..
Deeper yet,I still hide myself.
Those dimmed halls I will not lead you through..
Despite my yearning for you to come and find me there...

Only in dreams.

A.S.

On fire


You're a secret treasure I cling to...
Nestled deep inside..
Like slow burning embers,..
My body is on fire.

If I am losing my mind..
I don't want a cure.

A.S.

Chambers of my heart

Strange and wonderful this feeling..

My heart with its secret chambers..

Its capacity vast and ever expanding..

Learning that there are varied forms of love...

And this life with its many layers, reflects in my soul..

A chamber for every layer..

Each with its own capacity..


I'm in constant learning of its secrets...


A.S.

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Glowing heart.

There was no sunshine, only rain

Standing silently still..

Your heart weighed heavy..

Your dark and deep eyes contained it all.

In awe witnessing this beautiful mystery..

There was no sunshine, but my heart never glowed so intensely.


A.S.

I'm a vessel

My capacity to love supersedes my limitations of self..
Love transcends through everything..

It passes through the visible,tangible..
touch,movement,words,breath

It passes through space and time invisible yet felt..
thought,emotion and spiritual

My body is a mere vessel..
It receives and gives to a degree.
But the essence that moves it, surpasses the bounds of this body..
In truth love exists without limitations of the flesh..

This love can be there, yet here.

I am merely a vessel following the never ending current of her heart.


A.S.

Tell me..

Please..
Tell me that I'm not crazy..
Tell me these dreams are lucid,.
Tell me its really as close as it feels.

Is it possible that you anticipate me...
Just as I do your every move?..

In my way I fill space and time..
In my mind you're always there..
Living in different worlds..
Yet you're so apart of mine.

Show me..tell me..
Show me as much as I dare to dream..

Do I fill your mind.. like you do mine?
Do our spirits meet in the middle?
Or is mine stalking and roaming?

I'm finding myself in your center,
Witnessing my secret self, within you...
Still you are a mystery to me.
My glimpse inside only feeds my curiosity
My heart is soaring...
Starved to know more,..
Your thoughts and emotions with complete abandon.

A.S.

Friday, October 4, 2013

Life with all its layers.... We attempt tapping into our center selves, glimpsing into an ambiguous reality...
 
A.S.

Thursday, October 3, 2013

Cruel eyes

I have the best sister in the world.. She need not prove herself to cruel eyes.. She simply IS and she reminds me how to just BE..

To my dear sister, I am your mirror..
The world can be blind, but here I am and I see YOU...
You're a gift to this dunya and beyond...
You're a gift to me.
 Allahu Alim.

Look deeper

And through pain, can shine the truest beauty...
Look in the eyes, and if you are open..
You will see it all..

A.S.

The Great Love

And it is in this wait,this strain..
That I realize He is only making our love stronger
I always loved deeply, intensely and passionately..
Yet it is during these times of separation, or the mere notion of it..
That really exposes something greater..
A grand love revealing upon itself..
I had thought I had known the full intensity of love in all its intricacies..
I've only begun to realize there is no such measure.
It is constantly changing, evolving, growing and even though felt, it is still an awe inspiring mystery to me...
To be consumed in a love that has no true definition..
Words can't live up to what can only be felt..
Not even the sweetest lips could convey an essence of its Majesty.....

A.S.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

without a word

Don't be mistaken..
Her silence doesn't mean shes weak..
It doesn't mean she agrees or disagrees.
In her silence she's taking in the scene..
In her thoughtful manner, shes analyzing.
No desire to prove anything, no need to fit in...
Just listening.

Content with not answering to anyone but Him..
Allahu alim.

His approval, His opinion are all that matter after all..
Allahu alim.

Don't be mistaken...
She isn't a gullible, malleable fool..
Allahu alim.

A.S.