We lost

What we professed to each other and the world..
Was our shield of honor ..
Our barricade against the world..
Now we are standing on opposing sides.
What used to be the rich fabric we wore on our shoulders..
Our code of arms is now weathering..
What was once rich and full of color..
Now appears to be fading.
What used to be the sweet honey on our lips...
Now tastes bitter.
The feeling of being longed for,desired and even admired has diminished...
There was a time we fell for each other...
Won each other's hearts..
Over time we lost.

It's too easy to lose sight..
It's time to win each other back again...

Revitalize what has always been...

Always tomorrow...

I don’t know why saying goodnight makes me cry…
When I know we always have tomorrow…
That you’ll always be mine…
I don’t know why I feel every second without you…
A piece of me is lost...
Blown away like dust….
I feel your thoughts…
I feel your pain…
Yet between you and I …
I feel like I’m the only one with the knowledge of them…
I know I’m not…
You pick me up faster than the speed of light…
Yet I fall so easily into anguish…
I don’t know why love has to hurt so much…
Why I’m crying now…
But I know it's all worth it…
Because in the end…
I know I’ll still have you…
In the end there’s you

Inevitable

It's hard to hold back the things you wish to say..
To not ask the questions you wish to know the answers..
To pretend that they haven't ever been there to begin with.
I'm ignoring a part of myself..
In hopes it helps us all..
Words can only do so much...
I can only tell you from my heart what I'm able to say...
It's hard when my words become only words..
You don't grasp what I'm trying to say, or what we can't...
I feel so helpless, yet I'm hopeful...
Things will look up...
Love in every form is patient...
I can't let go of what I do have..
What I cherish so much...
I don't want to be forgotten or lost...

 

 

 

Here and now

Here and now..
I feel like the blood pumping in my body is rushing...
Every vein feels like its going to explode.
As I sit here to write..
It's slowly simmering down...
But now comes in the slow steady ache that takes over your body...
Numb to my fingertips...
But the pain lies deep...
Dying...
Dead..
Gone.

Who..

Who do ya think of when I'm not around?
What do ya do when the lights go out?
Everything I see reminds me of you Everything I do..
I think of you when the lights go out ...
Dreams do come true.. 

Who do ya think of when I'm not around?
What do ya do when the lights go out?
Is it me that lingers in your heart?
Is it me that comes to mind? ...
When you're happy..
When you're down...
Am I forever your hearts aspiration?
Your mind's deep admiration ..
Am I the one that fills in the blanks?
Am I that missing key? ..
The resolve for every strife..
If I mirror what you are to me..
Could I be your wife?

What remains..

Here I am...
With the world surrounding this room I linger in And I feel alone.
My heart is aching...
My body numbing...
Nothing left of me except these tears.
Even they dry and disappear...
My heart and soul have left this body...
I look down and see an empty capsule.
Nothing but pain engraved on its face...
This body can fade away...
If only this pain could too.
I can't believe this is me..
Never thought this could be...

Corner

Stay in the corner that you claim I put you in..
Stay there

I tried to hold you & comfort you ..
I tried to understand your reasoning..
But there in your corner, you wish to stay..
Stay there

Hate me and throw a tantrum...
Stay there

I will not hear you & coddle you when you act this way..
Not till you come out with better words to say.
Stay there

There in your corner... you stay.
You're more alone when you wish to stay..
In time I hope you will see..

P.s.
There's a spider in that corner of yours.

Aching

I hurt and you don't want to see it.
My heart is bleeding...
And you squeeze it...

You're the source of my pain,
But I'm begging you to ease it..
You're the only one that can.

I love you too..

I give my all to you..  
Every thought and action I devote to you..
You're always in my heart, in my mind..
So much I give up willingly...
All for you.
For you...
You're the reason for everything I do.
I'm selfless...
It's all about you.
I take a moment to enjoy a bit of Life's joys..
A time for me to be a part of something good..
All the while I'm thinking of you...
Only you
You turn it upside down & put me to the ground.
Suddenly I'm just as good as the dirt you walk on..
You might as well throw a spear into my heart..
This I can not bear...
This I can not take..
But I'll still give my all to you..
Your acid words I will take..
Because I know why you say and feel what you do..
I love you too..
I love you too..