A Part Of Me

I’m forever and eternally grateful for our shared life and bond. Buddies in the womb, in tuned to a heartbeat and a mother’s quietest wish. The shoulder we leant from time to time… Only as natural as sharing space in the womb. The way I feel your heart and soul without a single word, no land or ocean to keep your truth from my heart. Somewhere during creation we shared blood,muscle and thought. What a miracle. You’re not just my sister. You have always been a part of me. A thought, an idea, and forever my confidant. The road got twisted and bent along the way, many twists and turns.. A Truth not always seeing the light of day but we share the unspoken knowledge of our journey that led us to stand as we are today. Outside of you, me… Only Great Spirit, Allah knows how true are my words and the weight behind them. I’m thankful for what words lack in describing. I love you sister!

-A

Girl of the clouds

I’ll always be the girl of the clouds..
A heart forever searching for contentment…

Of all the souls I’ve come to know..
Of all the paths I’ve crossed..
You’re the only one to bring me to my feet.
Something real, something tangible..
All else fades away..

Only for you..
Can my soul be,
Earthbound..
And buzzing around the gates of Heaven..

-A

I'm still me

I'm still me..
Soft, expressive, open hearted..
But I've learned how to hold that softness..
For myself first.

-A

Statuesque

She’s a sweet breeze of old
Statuesque in her prose..
Footing on rough dirt
Her tears have nourished..

Softened the soil beneath her.
A tug of war
Between idle bliss..
And flowing with the wind..

Beautiful in either state she’s in.

In every world..
Every life…

Her soul pierces every realm.

-A

I Was There

I was there

I showed up…

I stayed longer than anyone saw

Longer than I probably should have…

I made choices

But they came with a cost

My time…

My body…

My quiet little life

Always waiting in the wings

While I held things together…

I tried to set boundaries

And maybe I did

But they blurred in the everyday

In the asking that didn’t sound like asking

In the way care becomes assumed

And mine was spent

Almost entirely…

I don’t regret what I gave

But I resent what was expected

The weight of it

The silence around it

The way it never paused to ask

if I was still okay…

And now

Now I feel it shifting

A door closing softly

No slam… just space

And in that space—

A man who stayed

A family that bloomed

While I was still holding the past together…

I miss you

And I also don’t want to go back

Not even for a moment…

This…

This breath

This beginning

This is the part that’s mine

—A

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Hear me out please

I have something to share

Just a piece of me…

A word or two

Who am I kidding?

It’s quite a few.

Time has passed…

And I hear my words

In the echo

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So much time and space…

Between me and you

I wrote my truth

Into existence…

But maybe it doesn’t matter…

If there’s no longer

Receipts

-A

My life

My whole life..
I was looking for love.
Safety.
Where Truth wasn’t denied
And contentment felt in the bones.
Not the ones that slipped on by..
A smile, however genuine,
Or a gesture like sand
Slipping through my hands.

At the end of the day
I had no real escape.

Young and green,
Together with my peers..
We did flee
On the constant cloud.
Our hearts were radically free..
Even if only for a few hours.
But the dawn always nears..

All my life I was fleeing
The bubble I had been trained and chained in.

Searching for a love of old..
Clinging to a memory.
Lost to the pain.
Searching for something constant.

Creator held me in the palm.
I clung to my purest nature.
It brought me back to You
Holding myself with grace
And cradling a silent Truth.

Great Spirit gave me my twin flame.
My soulmate.
Our love, born on truth..
Blossomed a family.

From blood, sweat, and tears..
Every smile..
A choice.
No longer dreaming..
Just being.

All praises to You

- A