Phantom Lover

I miss my phantom lover..
I miss what was never mine..

That brief hug where I felt a shiver..
Longer and tighter it could have been..
In dreams.

Your playful pat on my head...
Should have been fingers through my hair..
In dreams.

Near but missed opportunities..
My flesh n' soul was on high alert.
He is "near"

In complete awe, witnessing You renders me weak.
Becoming deaf, dumb and blind I melt..

Behind this curtain is the mystery of a love..
A secret pupil I've become..

You may see a glimpse through these eyes..They can't lie.

Spoken yet unspoken..

I wish for you to witness me.
Only in dreams with my phantom love.

A.S.