Ghost

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Hey

Babe..

Ill be ok

Its just the baby in me..

Bittersweet gratitude 

To be here standing..

With everything I’ve learned 

Every river crossed..

Its just the baby in me..

She feels seen..

She knows her story

Wasn’t in vain..

All her secrets are safe

She just wanted something 

Safe and warm..

Little did she know her heart will take her home. 

Don’t worry babe

Ill be ok..

Just holding the hand

Of the baby in me..

-A

Reflection

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The way we love in life..

In our own mode...

The way we love those 

Who can do nothing for us.

That is the reflection

Of who we are..

Showing kindness in every matter..

To every soul we cross paths with:

The delivery man..

The shopkeeper..

The cleaning hands..

The passerby..

How we speak to others..

Is a reflection of our own character.

For every interaction is a mirror

-A

Love Me Deeply

Love me deeply

Love me true

Ohhh

Just the skin of you

All of your words..

Honest in the dark..

Im counting my steps

To your heart.

Love me deeply

love me true

Ohhh

Oh what I would give..

To live under your skin..

Warm as amber

Safe in your dream.

Like sweet vanilla

Love me deeply

love me true

Ohhh

-A​

Thank you

Thank you for 

Giving me the space 

To be loved 

To be soft 

When my soul took on quiet warrior 

You loved me like a princess 

The chance for my body 

To escape the years

Thank you for being 

The one to catch my fall 

Nothing but softness 

In my heart.. 

-A​

You Dont Need The World

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There comes a correlation
Of moments
When you realize that you
Don’t need human acknowledgement to
Feel what you feel,
See the beauty you see,
Appreciate the joys and pangs
Your heart has discovered and endured.
None of this existence needs
To be acknowledged or validated.
The lack of connection and inquiry from others
Doesn’t make your reality any less.
It doesn’t erase what is felt,
Or your Truths.

-A

A Part Of Me

I’m forever and eternally grateful for our shared life and bond. Buddies in the womb, in tuned to a heartbeat and a mother’s quietest wish. The shoulder we leant from time to time… Only as natural as sharing space in the womb. The way I feel your heart and soul without a single word, no land or ocean to keep your truth from my heart. Somewhere during creation we shared blood,muscle and thought. What a miracle. You’re not just my sister. You have always been a part of me. A thought, an idea, and forever my confidant. The road got twisted and bent along the way, many twists and turns.. A Truth not always seeing the light of day but we share the unspoken knowledge of our journey that led us to stand as we are today. Outside of you, me… Only Great Spirit, Allah knows how true are my words and the weight behind them. I’m thankful for what words lack in describing. I love you sister!

-A

Girl of the clouds

I’ll always be the girl of the clouds..
A heart forever searching for contentment…

Of all the souls I’ve come to know..
Of all the paths I’ve crossed..
You’re the only one to bring me to my feet.
Something real, something tangible..
All else fades away..

Only for you..
Can my soul be,
Earthbound..
And buzzing around the gates of Heaven..

-A

I'm still me

I'm still me..
Soft, expressive, open hearted..
But I've learned how to hold that softness..
For myself first.

-A

Statuesque

She’s a sweet breeze of old
Statuesque in her prose..
Footing on rough dirt
Her tears have nourished..

Softened the soil beneath her.
A tug of war
Between idle bliss..
And flowing with the wind..

Beautiful in either state she’s in.

In every world..
Every life…

Her soul pierces every realm.

-A

I Was There

I was there

I showed up…

I stayed longer than anyone saw

Longer than I probably should have…

I made choices

But they came with a cost

My time…

My body…

My quiet little life

Always waiting in the wings

While I held things together…

I tried to set boundaries

And maybe I did

But they blurred in the everyday

In the asking that didn’t sound like asking

In the way care becomes assumed

And mine was spent

Almost entirely…

I don’t regret what I gave

But I resent what was expected

The weight of it

The silence around it

The way it never paused to ask

if I was still okay…

And now

Now I feel it shifting

A door closing softly

No slam… just space

And in that space—

A man who stayed

A family that bloomed

While I was still holding the past together…

I miss you

And I also don’t want to go back

Not even for a moment…

This…

This breath

This beginning

This is the part that’s mine

—A

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Hear me out please

I have something to share

Just a piece of me…

A word or two

Who am I kidding?

It’s quite a few.

Time has passed…

And I hear my words

In the echo

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Edit. Undo….

So much time and space…

Between me and you

I wrote my truth

Into existence…

But maybe it doesn’t matter…

If there’s no longer

Receipts

-A

My life

My whole life..
I was looking for love.
Safety.
Where Truth wasn’t denied
And contentment felt in the bones.
Not the ones that slipped on by..
A smile, however genuine,
Or a gesture like sand
Slipping through my hands.

At the end of the day
I had no real escape.

Young and green,
Together with my peers..
We did flee
On the constant cloud.
Our hearts were radically free..
Even if only for a few hours.
But the dawn always nears..

All my life I was fleeing
The bubble I had been trained and chained in.

Searching for a love of old..
Clinging to a memory.
Lost to the pain.
Searching for something constant.

Creator held me in the palm.
I clung to my purest nature.
It brought me back to You
Holding myself with grace
And cradling a silent Truth.

Great Spirit gave me my twin flame.
My soulmate.
Our love, born on truth..
Blossomed a family.

From blood, sweat, and tears..
Every smile..
A choice.
No longer dreaming..
Just being.

All praises to You

- A

Seeing clearly

To see clearly…
And beyond the heart…
Is simpler than we think.

You watch how they behave…
Not just the words they speak…
But how those words align…
Or quietly unravel.

People can believe their own lies…
But actions…
Or the absence of them…
Reveal everything.

When your heart feels unsure…
This is all you need to ask…

Are their words and actions one in spirit…
Or are they fractured?

The trouble was never you…
It lives in them…
Just beneath the surface.

-A

Everywhere

Everywhere

Humanity is on fire.

May our Creator keep us.

He places each of us..

Exactly where we are meant to stand.

I call no nation, no tribe.

Earth-wanderer…

With my soul in hand

And Allah, my Master.

-A

I am not bitter

I am not bitter
I am awake
Seeing things as they are.
Genuine or performative
I am not negative
For having Truth slip my lips.
I am not all the energies I feel
Around me.
I am aware.

I see what you do not.

-A

Stepped out of the Charade

I stepped out of your charade..
Care and concern,merely..
Performative .

The only thing you cared for was the image.
The audience has changed..
But the act remains the same. 
Forever  playing the victim..
Forever crying the martyr.

Still blind to the blessings..
Still deaf to the missed opportunities..
You live buried in blame..
A past built on lies.
And in one sweep..
You stole our future.

You abandoned me all those years ago.
Why did I suddenly expect more?

The love in my heart..
Blinded  me to the truth of you.
One last time..
I let you pull at my heart.
I let my vision of you
Crumble.
I let the hope I carried die. 

So there, in my chest…
I felt the ache of death.

You abandoned me..
When I needed you most.

My blind love survived
decades of silence..
A necessary death delayed..
When I was always..
Already dead to you.

-A

A Scent

He Brought Me A Scent…

From The Desert’s Treasure…

One Of A Kind…

Only Few Do Hold…

Magical… Tantalizing In Its Breeze…

Without Words He Captured…

Our Love So Rare…

Now I Wear It Like A Secret…

Only He Would Know…

-A

Sweet breeze

She’s a sweet breeze of old

Statuesque in her prose

Footing on rough dirt

Her tears have nourished,softened the soil beneath her

A tug of war..

Between idle bliss..

And flowing with the wind.

Beautiful in either state she’s in.

In every world..

Every life…

Her soul pierces every realm.

-A

I miss You

I miss you beyond what lies between us.
Not the ocean..
Not even the stars in our reach.

Selflessness asked..
But I restrained it.
Still, here I am with pride.
A heavy nuisance on my shoulders.
Thick enough to cut..

The irony of a love beyond measure,
and holding myself..
With hesitant care..
A silent pride.

All she wants..
Is your arms..
and a silent gaze..
To make the world fade away

-A

Flicker

No words and actions can convey

A light to flicker.

A heart to open.

Or wounds to heal.

You can see the best in everything..

Yet remain standing solitary in your view of them.

Like standing idle with truth in your heart.

While everything else swirls on by..

Your minds weight crashing in on itself.

The greatest love lies within my eyes.

This yearning in my heart.

And my hands clenched with a promise.

-A